my fault

oh well! i know it was mu fault. i didnt study it thoroughly, im not quite sure why. all i know is that what i did wasnt enough. now, my credibilty is in question and my immediate boss was reprimanded again by our director.
at the very least i can say this is a learning experience and i promise i will do better next time.

finally... peace

Until Saturday I was definite that I will be transferring to another church. Ive got it all planned: I will attend joan’s cell group by 2:30 and attend the service at 4pm. And also if time permits, the singles fellowship every Saturday night.

But when I woke up Sunday morning, God made it clear top me that He wants me to stay and commit myself again to my former church. He also had answers to all my questions. If I wanted growth, I just have to attend the Bible institute again. If I needed discipleship, I asked shelah and she was very much obliged to accept the challenge. That also answered my fellowship needs. For ministry, the church badly needs songleaders, and I haven’t been doing that for quite sometime now.

For my other questions that I cannot share in this blog, God’s spoke to me through a couple of verses.

“delight yourself in the Lod and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4

“seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well.” Matt. 6:33

simply put, I should seek God and let Him be my ultimate source of joy, trust in Him and he will take care of everything.

Finally now, I find peace…

busy-busyhan

at work...
im supposed to be doing a lot of fthings, too many backlogs and stuff. but it seems that im just doing "petiks" these past few days.
how i wish id have that enthusiasm again.
help!

try visiting my friend's blog said he, said she. its interesting.

swimming, shoots and sam

I don’t like my complexion now. Ive became tan, more like brown. The good thing is, I am more confident with my swimming. I have somewhat been able to overcome my fear in deep water. Thanks to my ongoing swimming lessons.


As part of my job, I get to attend TV and print shoots. I enjoy it. Love the food, the break, the chickas and the “hated-sundo.” I even told everybody that my hand was on the crispy bangus commercial. I just don’t like staying up very late, sometimes till 4:30 am!
One more thing that makes shoots interesting is that I get to meet celebrities like Donna Cruz, Dir. Jun Reyes, Yam Laranas, and recently Sam milby.

Sam. Im not a fan. I even make fun of the way he sings Only You. But he’s really nice and down to earth. Im sure he’ll be able to attract more customers. Im glad he’s endorsing my “babies.”

feb

i just love the weather in february! its cool, windy, cloudy. sometimes a few drizzle and some rays from the sun. for me, its perfect! i walk every morning singing in my head... "it felt like springtime, on this february morning... in the courtyard birds are singing your praise..."

what i dont like in feb is valentines day. nope, dont get me wrong... i know my valentines have always been cold, but thats not my reason. i just abhor the way this day has been commercialized. traffic is getting worse, malls are crowded, even the prices of flowers, not only roses, shoot up. plus, it seems like a person should be pitied for being unattached and dateless during this event. ugh!

2005

whew! im just glad 2005 is over. ill summarize the year the easiest way i can.

GOOD NEWS
Jesus
Renovation
Promotion
New friends
Old friends
Bible Institute
Badminton

BAD NEWS
Adenomyosis
Debts
Attitude
Spiritual LIfe
Church
YA
"Honeytoast"
"Honeytoast"
"Honeytoast"
"Honeytoast"
Jason
Third
Weight
"Pirena"
Nokia 6260

now you know why im looking forward to this new year so badly :)

Fairytopia

taken during our last Christmas party at NBC tent :)

holidays

i just love Christmas. the music, the lights, the gifts, shopping, giving, the smiles on people's faces. Most of all, i love the way Christmas brings out the sentimental in me. Im not sure why, but there is something about this season that just makes me want to sit down outside in the morning with hot chocolate.
Come to think of it, this season wont be any different from the past years. but something inside me is telling me to look forward to this one.
I guess, for me this year it would be different in a sense that i am redefining my goals and making new dreams.

insanity

some people say its insanity that i've waited for him for more than 3 years. they may be right. because i made my own monster. i didnt realize that we weren't on the same boat until it was too late. so now the pain is so unbearable. but can i blame myself for reacting the way i did? after all, what happened to me is not entirely my fault.

i may be insane, but i have seen the light.
i am releasing myself from this state of temporary insanity.
i am moving on...

smiles

nobody seem to smile like this at work lately, especially this week. too much problems, enough with the blame game already! its not gonna solve anything.
i figured that i should post this picture from our caliraya trip to remind me of the times when all of us are jolly, not stressed or harassed from the demands of the king bee or should i say, "queen"?